As I try to write my mind clouds over ,it happens a lot when I try to think of some thing to write to you Tylor ,all the time we spent together and my mind try's to block you out and that hurts so much ,so many memory's filled with love and pain in a few days you would be 19 ,you are such a good looking lad not that you ever thought it ,I think I nave said before life is full of very hard things to do now ,so many don't realise how delicate life is every time I held you as you were put under for Sergery not knowing if you would come back to me ,I thought that was hard , what did I know ,you kept bouncing back , To have choices how very luckey we are ,many out there don't or can't , we will be giving for your birthday Tylor as we allways will just to help put a smile on a small face to give a little hope , together we never gave up hope did we night my beautiful boy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx