We took plenty of holidays while the children were small all in this country as money was tight also as we didn't want to take Tylor too far from his specialists ,we went to Wales a few times Tenby and sanders foot and have some good memory's from there ,and Tenby beach is lovely. But the one place we went a lot was Weymouth ,so many happy memory's ,don't think I can write now by may in time ,but the most special thing I want to share with you now ,I put our name down for a beach hut on the esplanade, This was about 2years ago ,we had the call I was next in the list the week we went in to hospital for the last time ,,well I had to give up that dream then but I kept it real for Tylor to hold on to ,I sat and told him if all else fails and your in trouble go to the beach hut and in your mind picture us there with nanny and her funny hat ,Leah playing in the sand me and mum and Marcus and dappy ,and this story I played over and over on those dark nights , when Tys councillor came this was the first thing she said to have a place ,well we already had that place and he held that dream do clouded so tight ,it was so real because it was going to be real ,I think I learn some thing about hope there ,the tues eve before Ty passed we sang songs just him and me well mostly me "badly"we mucked about and we went up and down the ward ,Ty told me he loved baby's and he liked short girls because he could fit them under his arm as he was quite tall ,that night he had a very settled nights sleep ,we had also talked about little nut brown hair a story I had read over and over and over again ,with out the book I read from memory so so special this was any way that's all I can do on hope for tonight ,love you Ty your so f,,,ing special.